走了..

你已經走了..
我不該再在乎了..

不應該了..
不應該了..
不應該了..
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不應該了..
不應該了..
不應該了..
不應該了..
不應該了..
不應該了..
不應該了..

別哭了.. 哭了有什麼用..
她還能再回來嗎??
沒有了.. 她對你沒感覺了..
完了.. 懂嗎??

習慣了..

習慣了每次5點多起來看你的信息.. 可是沒電話了..
習慣了每次6點多起來上線寫寫東西給你.. 可是你已經不在了..
習慣了每次去學校之前我都會寫一封信給你安心.. 可是我沒資格了..
習慣了每次叫你吡.. 現在只能在心裡說了..
習慣了每次你從學校回到家.. 你總是會信息我..
說你回來了.. 讓我安心下.. 可是沒有了..

現在.. 我該習慣一個人的滋味了..
一個沒有你的滋味了..

我會等你.. 等到你回來為此..

好吧.. 這是你要的..

我.. 在學校哭了.. 眼淚我真的控制不到你..
想哭就哭.. 想盡辦法控制它也不行..
當我看到她.. 對我那麼冷.. 心好痛..
忍了在她面前不哭了很久..
可是.. 當我走開她的時候.. 淚..
不停的滴下來.. 滴了好多..
朋友一直問.. 我是到底怎麼了..
我卻只能勉強地說.. 沒事的..
我只是愛哭罷了.. 就哈哈大笑的.. 讓朋友們說我傻的..
我.. 不懂該怎麼辦.. 不懂該怎麼去理解..
我只能不要讓你在傷心了.. 再痛苦了..

我.. 我會想辦法.. 去做東西.. 來累壞我自己..
學會不去亂想.. 痛苦的時候.. 我會忍著不哭..
我想變回.. 以前的我.. 痛苦.. 哭泣.. 享受一個人的寂寞..
這是以前的我.. 我會逼我自己..
一個人靜靜的.. 一個人哭.. 一個人的痛..

在愛情裡受傷了.. 誰也不能怪.. 只能怪自己太疼另一半了..
這句.. 可能就是再說.. 說我太疼你了..
疼你太多了.. 也愛你態多了.. 所以傷害最大的也是我自己..

好了.. 不多說了.. 以後的心事.. 就會寫在這裡..
讓我在這裡發洩..

謝謝..

可以不要什麼事都隱瞞起來嗎??

吡.. 你為什麼就是要這樣??
難道你就是不能說出來嗎??
我不想看你受傷害了..

❤爱1个人··
❤是永远の承诺··
❤说“我爱你”之后,,
❤能不能不要说“分手”??
❤爱他/她の话,,,能不能就不 要让他/她在痛苦中过日子??

寶貝, 我真的很愛你.. 為什麼你就是要這樣做??
有什麼苦衷.. 你可以告訴我嗎??
有什麼東西.. 你可以直接來找我啊..
昨晚我真睡不好..
想了一整晚..
到最後, 我想到什麼??
我只想到我跟你的愛情.. 我們幸福的愛情..
也許我們也有傷害.. 可是我覺得很值得..
因為你.. 我學會堅強了很多..
你.. 讓我一步一步的踏進你的世界裡..
你.. 讓我從我的痛苦跳了出來..
你.. 也讓我學會了很多東西..

跟你.. 實在幸福多了..
如果有什麼苦衷.. 你是否可以告訴我??
如果我錯了.. 是不是能指點我.. 我的錯??
我愛你.. 真的很愛你..
別拿一些傷害我的理由來逼我..
我真的不能失去你這麼好.. 又值得去愛的人..

我們都經歷了那麼多風風雨雨了.. 為什麼到最後..
你還是要選擇離開我?? 我接受不到這麼大的打擊..
如果世界沒有了你.. 你說.. 你要我變回以前的我嗎??

以前的我.. 只懂得哭.. 痛苦.. 享受一個人的寂寞..
可是有了你的那個時候.. 我不曾再懂得哭了..
不會去痛苦了.. 也更不會去享受一個人的寂寞了..
忍了那麼久的痛.. 享完一個人的寂寞了..
就是你來幫我的.. 帶我走出這個黑暗的世界..

我愛你.. 就是那麼簡單.. 我不能失去你.. 真的不能..
你是否能告訴我.. 以前你說過的我愛你呢??
不見了.. 跑到哪裡去了??
回來好嗎?? 別一直跑回去以前的世界..
我要的是你的快樂.. 我要的是你的幸福..
我真的不介意.. 我能不能快樂又幸福..
但是.. 我很希望.. 我給你的日子..
每一天都是那麼幸福的.. 好嗎??

吡.. 如果你看到了.. 可以告訴我嗎??
告訴我.. 你在想什麼..
我真的很需要你的答案.. 謝謝..

昨天和今天

昨天我跟她, 還聊得蠻投入的時候.. 我就不想的事情發生了, 那就是..
媽媽發現到了, 我和她之間的秘密, 電話也被沒收了.. 這件事, 是我們最怕給媽媽知道的一件事... 知道了.. 我們就不能再以前這樣光明正大的聊天了, 不能信息你了, 更糟糕的.. 我們不能常見面了.. TT

怎麼辦?? 該怎麼做?? 很煩惱.. 自己躲在房間了哭.. 打給她.. 跟她說很多話.. 很傷心的事.. 我一直懂給她貼麻煩罷了.. 不是我沒用.. 是我沒有守信用.. 我記得她跟我說..

===> 世界最不喜歡的人就是只懂得哭的女人..

哈哈, 可是我回复這句..

===> 世界最不喜歡的人就是不守信用的人..

就在那個時候我偷打給她, 也要關的時候..
二舅走進來找我了, 我還以為是媽媽..
不說二話, 就把電話給掛了..
假裝低頭睡了.. 可是我抬頭一看..
原來是他.. 還好.. 他不是說很怎樣, 他知道我的真正身份, 我也不介意告訴他..
他說, 其實現在的年紀, 13 到 18 是好玩的時機..
所以我沒錯.. 他怎麼說, 我也安心了.. 因為我可以借他的那句話來回應媽媽..
二舅是我來路不明的傢伙, 是給我奶奶收養的一位修行人..
他.. 明白的東西比我多.. 他很厲害, 智慧排第一..
他說, 其實L界的人要能證明自己真正是不是.. 就要等到21歲以上.. 如果心還是愛著女人的話, 可能你就是了..
因為他說那句話, 讓我振作起來..
我要證明給他看.. 我會跟她.. 走到完.. 走完我們人生的路..
因為我真的很愛她.. 我不能沒有她.. 也更不能失去她..
她是我人生中最能讓我明白愛情的一位女子..
二舅, 謝謝你.. 我知道你也給女性傷害過.. 還是傷害到很深的一位..
所以你到現在你也不敢娶妻.. 哈哈哈.. 可是你都說了.. 要慢慢來啊.. 對嗎??
但是你不同.. 你們的社會跟現在的社會不同了.. ^^
二舅.. 我們的社會變了.. 以前的人也要習慣..
可是我好謝謝你.. 謝謝你每次我想跟人訴苦的時候你都看穿我的眼神..
我們都知道.. L界的人.. 真的很難走完這條路..
可是你還是相信我了.. 只要慢慢的培養就可以了..
你說, 你還會幫我在跟我媽媽和奶奶面前說話..
你還教我去忍讓我媽媽.. 因為××我們家事×× ^^
你可以看穿全家人的眼神.. 我真的很佩服你..
不愧是二舅咯.. xDD 哈哈哈..

二舅.. 我跟你說.. 我們的打賭.. 我會實現的.. 哈哈哈..
慢慢來吧.. 我也要變聰明咯.. 不想再變笨了..
什麼是都不會想.. 真是的.. 咳..
好咯.. 很晚了.. 2點多了.. 也該睡了..
明天才繼續吧.. ^^

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今天.. 五點多起來了.. 昨天滾到4點多才能睡..
吡, 對不起每次我就是這樣.. TT
我們不能信息.. 但是我們能上線..
我把FB處理好好了.. 我才去學校..


今天在學校真的是瘋了.. @@ xD
因為.. 8點就考Geo, 加上我很愛睡..
無法專心.. 快點做了就躺下去睡了..
老師收了我的考卷我也不知道..
只顧著睡.. 考完我們就可以下課了..
那是又有puasa.. 哈哈哈.. 我直接沒去吃..
一直睡到考KH的時候我才起來..
可是我很奇怪.. 為什麼考著Kh的時候更愛睡了..
做完了.. 就寫了一遍的心事在考試紙上..
哈哈哈..



哈哈哈.. 厲害嗎?? xDD


還發了兩個毒誓.. 看到的人才明白我說什麼.. 所以慢慢看咯..
現在.. 我們沒事了.. 媽媽好像也不管了.. 但是..
還不肯定好了嗎?? 我只知道.. 如果她打來就別聽罷了咯.. ^^
現在只缺時間和彌補.. ^^
記得我所說的話嗎??

××> 我知道我們的路, 真的會不好走.. 可是.. 你可以把我當成時間一樣.. 她會滴答滴答的走.. 如果你不去珍惜的話, 她就遠遠的走去.. 不能再回來了.. 如果你會珍惜時間的話.. 記得哦.. 我會彌補你的一切.. 讓你快樂回去.. 時間掌握在你手中.. 看看你就怎樣的處理了.. xDD

寶貝.. 我愛你.. 我愛你.. 愛你.. 我真的不後悔愛上你.. 愛你真的是我一生中最美好的一件事.. 我會好好的珍惜我們的時間.. 我不會再讓你有麻煩了.. ^^ 我會好好的做事.. 不會讓你受到為難..

現在.. 只需要時間罷了.. 時間慢慢地過了.. 家人也會接受了.. 二舅, 順便替我加油啊.. 我長大了.. 我肯定會娶她為妻.. 你啊.. 記得幫忙我跟她們說好話咯.. 要不然我會很痛苦的.. xD
好勒.. 不多說了.. 再見咯大家.. 我會再更新的.. 哈哈哈.. 拜拜..
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真的很愛你..

要痛苦, 就讓我把我的快樂換你的痛苦..
要哭泣, 就把我的微笑換你的眼淚..
要痛恨, 就把我的愛換你的痛恨..
愛你, 真的是我一生中.. 最幸福的一件事..

^^

很久沒有開了，對不起。發生那麼多事情，那麼多的眼淚。這次回來，只是傷心的時候會再寫。我還是忘不了那些眼淚，吡丟下我的眼淚和某人來搶走她的時候的淚。

我哭了很久..
心已經有一個難補回去的傷痕..
我每次看到某人寫給吡的東西，看到她寫她有多愛吡。
心不停的痛起來了，我心在想，我該怎麼辦？
她很愛吡，而我該怎麼辦？
我。。。。。。。。要繼續愛吡，還是讓給她？
雖然我們是複合了，只是傷痕還在。
每一晚，我都會想到我們分手的那天。
眼淚不停的掉了，眼睛都腫了。
可是我還是忍著不可以哭。
因為我真的太愛她了。
朋友說我不要再為她付出那麼多了，可是我太愛她了。
我不忍心看到她再受到傷害了。
所以我寧願選擇傷害自己，來換她每一天的開心。
想辦法，每一次，讓你笑。
想辦法，每一次，不再讓你掉眼淚。
想辦法，每一次，騙自己說沒事。
忍與騙了全世界，我的心好了。
可是真真的我，心還沒有好，心還是碎碎的。
想到某人來寫著她對吡的愛。
我真的很想死了算了，可是我還是放不下很多。
放不下朋友。。。
放不下她。。。
放不下家人。。。
等。。。。。。。。。。。

我的心真的好痛。。。
她也太愛你了。。。
看到她每次那麼傷心，我真的很心軟。

I might not be the most beautiful or the sexiest, nor have the most perfect body...I might not be anyone's first choice...but I am a GREAT choice...I don't pretend to be someone else...cuz I'm too good at being ME...I might not be proud of some ofthe things I've done...but I am proud of who I am today. Take me as I am... or don't take me at all...

-By, Alex Stanley

A Bad day or Happy Day??

Man, why.. Ergh.. So FU*K up.. Today our school have lots of Kawat.. I'm the Tae Kwon Do leader, Flag leader.. Most of the time, I don't Kawad at all. Erghh.. Man!!

Almost in every time, something will always happen on me, and I don't know why?! But some don't.

After our school assembly, I'm kinda no mood for anything.. I just want to go up to done my works, this is all I had in mind. My BM teacher, Pn. Lim Hong Beng want us to copy all down from the Komsas book. Some of them are done, but some of them are not. Is okay, I still handle it, I will just shut up to done my works. But why my friends, my problem have to come out and make it more worse.?! My friends love to disturb me and can't really understand me?! Why?! Erh..!!

After BM periods.. It's Math.. Oh God.. *Fainted* Shit, Pn. Hasimah.. Is the worse teacher of all!! I can't understand one single things from her!! She loved to use broken English or Remixed English+BM..

Example, Girls, please tolong dengar sini.. I know it's bit hard, tapi you all need to try it.. Bukan you all will gagal!!

Dude, what is that??!! I don't even thinks that every teacher will use that kind of words to teach us. Would they?? I think, only she can. Hey, that's not a Teacher should be talk, must be proper English!! Come on, I'm damn weak in BM already. Why you love to use BM plus English to teach us?? Do you know?? Every time you walk in to our class, shit la.. Notes Notes Notes.. Non stop!! I can't handle it no more.!! FU*K you!!

1. We can't understand from you.
2. Don't always use Remixed English to teach us!!
3. Don't always come in than Notes, Notes, Notes!! It's so annoying!!
4. Don't act SMART!! Dump Ass!!
5. Teach us nicely la!!

After she class finish.. Erg.. *relaxing* Finally got sometimes to relax my ear and hands. The new teacher of our PJ is nice. Won't be so angry, home-work giver, monster head.. I have all the time to do my works. Well, that time no much things to say. Just doing my works. Haizz.

"Ring~" Recess Time. Lolxx. Happy Happy Happy. No more hot ass in the chair. Rushing down to buy my Favorite food~!! Malay Nasi Ayam.. *Yum~* ^^ Oh man, I do really love the Chicken Rice. Hehe. Walau.. Now I'm hungry already.. *Stomach Growling* T.T

Lolxx. "Ring~" Bell ring again.. Geography time. Haizz.. My folio, I didn't done yet. Erghh.. Our teacher punish us who didn't done her works must stand up for 1 period. Oh well, I get use to it, lot's of my friends also same. But, here at this time. Not much of things to say.. Erm.. Let's skip to something else.

Okay, skip to the time that my gang and I going to Kawad Kaki. Walau.. More crazy okay?! I'm the flag leader, but nothing to do?!! What?? I'm like stupid idiot, walking here and there. Haizz.. But~ at lest some of my crazy ass friends and god sis are there. If not I will bored to death, Erhhh!! We are like monkey jumping here and there.. Like a Hyena, laughing here and there. Ouch.. Stomach pain.. Lolxx. I can't go to the tournament on this Sunday, cause my mum won't let. Oh man, almost can meet my friends and unknown friends there. Why she has to pull me away from it?!

Come on, I want have Sparing with Sze Ke, She is the only one who can Sparing with me.

No Pain, No Game.

I love kick people hardly, enjoying the pleasure of pain and people weakling. I don't know why, only 4 of them can handle me or sometimes defeat me. I love the time I lose, and the time I win. But most for the time, is the pain of my body.. It is a feeling, I can't stop to have it. Lolxx.

Oh well, skip to the end. School suck. I can't do nothing on the school but just works. Walau, come of think of it. I do remember two of them are trying to spoil my life. That would be Peggy and Esther. Shit!! Esther suddenly tell Peggy, she love me?! What?! Hell no!! I'm not loving them both!! They all are like flies. Buzzing you all day long.

I can't stand them all, Esther, When I walk into her. She will shout or run away. =.=

Peggy, okay, she's nice. But not my type la.. They love to talk talk talk and talk.. My hears will goodbye, if I didn't tell them my phone was kena rampas by my mum. Haizz.. Thank you, mum.

I think, it was all I wanted to say for now. Bye.

Stupid Days

Stupid Elisha is bugging me for whole day, after that Esther, again and again.. Erhhh!!! *Bang Wall* 1st, Elisha is with her SK, talk about her every single day. But very funny,

Sabrina say:" If Elisha has children, every single day she will talk to her children about her Beloved SK, and the children will run away from her, move away from her.. Really!!!!!" **Doom** Everyone laugh..

Dude, I can't take it no more.. Elisha look like a undeath fly.. She can't death in the moment yet, if only SK hurt her to much.. =.= She can't stay till late night and chat with me say.. "Wen Wey, help me.. XXX don't want talk to me.." I was thinking.. I'm doom.. I can't igrone her away, than chat with her.. Erh.. She's killing me for whole day for just one topic ''SK'' Topic..

After her.. You know.. More worse.. Esther Chew.. She lagi teruk..

Tersilap hit her only, she will jerit.. Like me almost wanted to rape her only.. =.= Walau.. This girl ar.. Talk talk talk.. Yap Yap Yap.. Man, I wanna die.. Last Saterday, I just find out.. She save my massage since She started to SMS me.. and show to everyone.. Hey, Esther.. Now my friends are talking about me and you are BLA BLA BLA already you know.. T.T Walau.. She mouth is like the chicken ass, can't stop moving and talking.. If she has a boy friends. Please is someone is that can't heard her voice.. Than, thank god.

Oh God Bless Me, Please pray her mouth would just shut up for a while that at the bad time.. Than I'm good. =.= T.T @~@

A sad tears..

你看得见我打在屏幕上的字，却看不到我掉在键盘上的泪……

Sean Kingston ft Justin Bieber – Eenie Meenie

[Sean Kingston]
Eenie meenie miney mo
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla (if, if, if she holla) let her go

She’s indecisive
She cant decide
She keeps on lookin
From left to right

Girl, cmon get closer
Look in my eyes
Searchin is so wrong
Im Mr. Right

You seem like the type
To love em and leave em
And disappear right after this song.
So give me the night
To show you, hold you
Dont leave me out here dancin alone

You cant make up your mind, mind, mind, mind, mind
Please dont waste my time, time, time, time, time
Im not tryin to rewind, wind, wind, wind, wind
I wish our hearts could come together as one

Cause shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova

[Justin Bieber]
Let me show you what your missin
Paradise
With me you’re winning girl
You don’t have to roll the dice
Justin Bieber Eenie Meenie
Tell me what you’re really here for
Them other guys?
I can see right through ya

You seem like the type
To love em and leave em
And disappear right after the song.
So give me the night
To show you, hold you
Dont leave me out here dancin alone

Cant make up your mind
Please dont waste my time
Not tryin to rewind
I wish our hearts could come together as one

Cause shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova

[Sean Kingston]
Eenie meenie miney moe
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla (if, if, if she holla) let her go
Eenie meenie miney moe
Catch a bad chick by her toe
If she holla (if, if, if she holla) let her go

Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova
Shorty is a eenie meenie miney mo lova

Cant make up your mind
Please dont waste my time
Not tryin to rewind
I wish our hearts could come together as one
(repeat)
[End]

痛~

心头痛了.. 没人来去关心了.. 留了许多的伤痕.. 想哭.. 也哭不出这种痛苦.. 很想念快乐的滋味.. 也最想念.. 你曾给我最幸福快乐的日子..

心好痛.. 好想哭..

The Beautiful Poem Ever..

街市睡了, 而路灯醒着..

泥土睡了, 而树根醒着..

鸟去睡了, 而翅膀醒着..

寺庙睡了, 而钟声醒着..

山河睡了, 而风景醒着..

春天睡了, 而种子醒着..

肢体睡了, 而血液醒着..

诗人睡了, 而诗句醒着..

历史睡了, 而时间醒着..

微笑睡了, 而甜蜜醒着..

世界睡了, 而你~我~醒着..

A mother and her daughter is having a conversation..

Mom: "Oh hon, look at the good side. Being a lesbian is better than, having sex with a big dick, like your dad has~!!"

Daughter: "=.="

The worse thing, I has every think of..

It's a Lonely Road..

A far place to go.. A lonely road to walk.. Without you beside me.. No matter how long I walk.. How long I took.. It's still going to be a lonely road to walk forever without you..

Last Night On Earth

It's the last night on earth before the great divide
My hands are shaking time was never on our side
And there's no such thing as a beautiful goodbye
As an ordinary day I prayed for you a thousand times

It's never enough
No matter how many times I tried to tell to tell you this is love

If tomorrow never comes I want you to know right now that I
I'm gonna love you until the day I die
If tomorrow falls asleep can you hold me first
I'm gonna love you like it's the last night on earth
Like it's the last night on earth

A penny for your thoughts
A picture so it lasts
Let's knock down the walls of immortality
Your fingers on my skin only you can hear my fear
Only you can help me heal
I see forever with you here

It's never enough no matter how many miles stand between us this is love

If tomorrow never comes I want you to know right now that I
I'm gonna love you until the day I die
If tomorrow falls asleep can you hold me first
I'm gonna love you like it's the last night on earth

It's never enough
No it's never enough
(it's never enough)
Oohh

The afterglow
The horizon line
The shadows fall
Will you still be mine
Will you still be mine
Will you still be mine I ask

If tomorrow never comes I want you to know right now that I
I'm gonna love you until the day I die
If tomorrow falls asleep can you hold me first
I'm gonna love you like it's the last night on earth